i just lost the game.

how about this weather we're having?
i feel like my icon pic is accurate now, minus the evil sun.

so i'm not going to be getting a new fone until the palm pre comes out a little later in the year.
but the old fone will do in the meantime.

it's so so so cold out.
i know how you feel.
maybe you won't believe me though.

Current Music: this is the world that we live in / i feel myself get tired

may 2009 be your year.

Current Music: and they'll come true / impossible not to do / impossible not to do

they say the nile used to run from east to west

so anything can change.

okay...go!

Current Music: i'm fine / but i hear those voices at night / sometimes

don't tell your secrets to anyone
because ideas are vulnerable
as soon as you say your idea out loud
then it can go and live on its own
and you will miss it oh so much
and you will wait for it's return
and you will wish it were your own
but ideas that left never come back home

don't tell your mother that you are afraid
don't tell your lover that your heart might break
don't tell your gods you no longer believe
because as soon as you say it out loud they will leave you
and you will miss them oh so bad
and you will wait for their return
and you will wish they were your own
but gods that have left you will never grace your home

don't tell your secrets to anyone
because ideas are vulnerable
as soon as you say your ideas out loud
then they can go and live on their own without you
and you will miss them oh so bad
and you will wait for their return
and you will wish they were your own
but ideas that have left
will never
come back
home


in other news, life is a rollercoaster

Current Music: i want you / to take me out

and i learn every room long enough
to make it to the door
and then i hear it click shut behind me

and every key works differently
and i forget every time
and the forgetting defines me
that's what defines me

Current Music: you've worked with less

she keeps reminding me there is change in the "what is" but change cannot be made till you accept the "what is."

it's the good advice
that you just didn't take

taking good advice is hard.
it's a lot easier to give it.

i wish i would do a better job of making but especially maintaining connections with people.

i wish did a better job of expressing how i feel.

because i am in this swamp and there is a rope in front of me and there is an alligator behind me and there is a girl sitting at the edge eating a hot dog. so i can count on death to come and say peachy to me. so i believe in hope.

friends make the believing that much easier.

i'm trying to accept the what is, and enjoy the swamp.

Current Location: the swamp
Current Mood: the way i really feel
Current Music: skating around the truth / who i am / / the ice is getting thin

name meme:

use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. they have to be real places, names &/or objects....nothing made up! try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question. and have fun with it!!!


1) four letter word: jazz
2) boy's name: jake
3) girl's name: jolene
4) occupation: jester
5) a colour: jasmine
6) something you wear: jacket
7) beverage: juice
8) food: jambalaya
9) something found in a bathroom: juggs
10) a place: jerusalem
11) reason for being late: jeopardy
12) something you shout: jump!

Current Music: might as well jump. jump!

Current Music: isn't it ironic?